Today, I find myself reflecting on that day because of several reasons I won’t outline here. Let me just say that I find myself in a similar position where the one thing I planned to be my foothold, and used as an excuse was taken away yesterday. Now it's decision time. I have been telling myself all day that I’ve got this. Coincidentally, I told everyone that I would make a decision today, the first day of August and though we didn’t get that far, I believe my sister’s call yesterday was in anticipation of my decision. I laughed with myself this morning and felt the assurance of God’s love for me and how, He is in charge of everything that I do regardless of my penchant for control. Yes, I have been trying to not do it anymore and I think I’ve been succeeding thus far which explains the sudden burst of laughter this morning.
Should I grieve for what’s lost? No, I shouldn’t and I’m not. Does it make the decision a “slam dunk”? No, it doesn’t. The truth is, I didn’t give it a second thought because of what I was doing and God has said “NO” to that. So I’ve got this in the sense that I can now focus on these two things and finally give my answer. Decisions, phew! Yes, I’ve got this with God on my side. Rainn Wilson put it this way on OWNTv’s Super Soul Sunday – “God is the fashioner.” He was right and if that weren’t real earlier to me, it is now. Ray Bradbury succinctly put it this way, “Go to the edge of the cliff and jump off. Build your wings on the way down.” So, here’s to taking a deep breath and making that vault or taking that leap off the cliff (as many times as it takes), while God fashions my wings on the way down. I think Rainn Wilson will agree with that last part.